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[ And it's getting weird. Because it was just supposed to be a stupid joke, he wasn't actually supposed to find out that Dave was seeing someone. He wasn't supposed to feel anything about it.
dave i don't wanna sit here and talk about this. i don't want you saying sorry. i don't want stuff to be all awkward. i just don't want to. it's easier to pretend it's a joke. it's easier than thinking it's real. i don't want to feel like this. i'm not supposed to like dudes. and i'm not supposed to like my best friend. my in-a-relationship best friend.
you are so its not my problem jesus you want me now that you cant have me is that it some cliche hollywood bullshit going on here lets round up the cameras and put on a real show you just realised this second you want to ride my dick youre totally alright with getting rammed up the ass like a pig on a spit that conclusion smacked you in the face all because i said im with some guy that happens to take me off the market am i reading this right??
no. and that's why it's unfair, because you're making asshole assumptions like you always do. but whatever, if you want to believe your best friend is that much of a dick then i guess it's your prerogative.
you're so dumb. i've thought you were the coolest person alive since we were thirteen, but do you think i know what the hell i want at that age? seriously? denial's cool, i live with it a lot after that stupid fucked up game. ignoring feelings for you was just as easy, because you were still my best friend and i'm fucking terrified of the possibility of being anything but straight. and i'm not okay with it. i'm not. i'm not okay with liking a dude, and i'm not alright with any of the shit at all that comes with it. but that doesn't mean that i have to like watching you with some guy, and that doesn't mean i won't get stupidly jealous about it. it just means that i have to shut up and deal and worry about whatever the hell it is i have going on in my head. heart. whatever.
this isnt fair davesprites a pretty good example of what id do for you give up everything and ruin my life if i could save yours and if youd have said this stuff back then who knows he certainly cares about you to the point where he hates himself for not being enough anymore
i wont forget any of this youre late as hell but that doesnt mean i dont care if youre hurting i do
its just not okay to tell me youre jealous when i had to force myself to move on from you
what? no, why? why can't this just be left alone or whatever. seriously we've gone this many years without talking about it, can't we just ignore it again.
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Too much, too much. ]
haha.
man i got you so good, dave.
:D
[ Overcompensating. ]
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was that funny
did you think id be laughing
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dave it's not that.
i just.
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i don't want you saying sorry. i don't want stuff to be all awkward.
i just don't want to.
it's easier to pretend it's a joke.
it's easier than thinking it's real. i don't want to feel like this.
i'm not supposed to like dudes.
and i'm not supposed to like my best friend.
my in-a-relationship best friend.
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its not my problem
jesus
you want me now that you cant have me is that it
some cliche hollywood bullshit going on here lets round up the cameras and put on a real show
you just realised this second you want to ride my dick
youre totally alright with getting rammed up the ass like a pig on a spit
that conclusion smacked you in the face all because i said im with some guy that happens to take me off the market
am i reading this right??
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because thats the truth isnt it
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but whatever, if you want to believe your best friend is that much of a dick then i guess it's your prerogative.
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fuck
im sitting here with my head in a hand trying to calm down
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i've thought you were the coolest person alive since we were thirteen, but do you think i know what the hell i want at that age? seriously?
denial's cool, i live with it a lot after that stupid fucked up game. ignoring feelings for you was just as easy, because you were still my best friend and i'm fucking terrified of the possibility of being anything but straight.
and i'm not okay with it. i'm not. i'm not okay with liking a dude, and i'm not alright with any of the shit at all that comes with it.
but that doesn't mean that i have to like watching you with some guy, and that doesn't mean i won't get stupidly jealous about it.
it just means that i have to shut up and deal and worry about whatever the hell it is i have going on in my head.
heart.
whatever.
like i said, forget it.
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davesprites a pretty good example of what id do for you
give up everything and ruin my life if i could save yours
and if youd have said this stuff back then
who knows
he certainly cares about you to the point where he hates himself for not being enough anymore
i wont forget any of this
youre late as hell but that doesnt mean i dont care if youre hurting
i do
its just not okay to tell me youre jealous when i had to force myself to move on from you
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i'm sorry, dave.
i never should have said anything.
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youre my best bro and i want to know where you stand
i need to talk to gamzee thats all
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no, why?
why can't this just be left alone or whatever.
seriously we've gone this many years without talking about it, can't we just ignore it again.
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i dont want to lie to him about this
and i dont even dislike you in the slightest over this so its no big deal
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yeah.
look, i should go.
bye, dude.
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im coming over later to see you though
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